Sunday, July 23, 2006

You will become.

Current Music: Everclear - Misery Whip

Walking wounded with a belly
full of pain
And a big bad attitude

We are shaking shadows for that
perfect dark room
Where we can do just what we
want to do

There is a place...

Where we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like
the way we live

When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my
misery whip

(yes...I said like a misery whip)

Walking hungry with a pocket
full of promise
And a big black song
in my head

I know the answers to my questions
They are purple black and blue
And they are waiting for me in my bed

There is a place...

Where we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like
they way we live

When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my
misery whip
(I will say it again...
like a misery whip)

Stop!


I get no pleasure
When I'm going through the motions
Of my mediocre day to day
I'm just an actor
Just like Robert fucking Redford
When I say those stupid words
That they expect me to say

Yes we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like the dirty things we do

Yeah

When we are all alone
In this house that we
call home...
I will fall down like a bitch
for you

I need you to hit me and
make me
Shake
I need you to hurt me and
make me
Beg for more
I need you to bend me and
make me
Break
I need you to make me feel like
I am your whore

I feel complete when
I feel sick inside

I feel complete when
I feel sick inside

I need to feel like
I am real inside

I need to feel like
I am really alive

I need you to make me feel

I need you to hit me and
make me
Shake
I need you to hurt me and
make me
Beg for more
I need you to bend me and
make me
Break
I need you to make me feel

Like we can leave behind
All those simple minds
They would not like
the way we live

When we are all alone
In this house that we call home
You will become my
misery whip

You will become my
misery whip

You will become my friend

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

I haven't written an update in a while

Current Music:Pedro the Lion - Penetration [Live in Omaha 2004]

So I have this job that i like, i applied there on a whim, and now the place i really wanted to work at has called me back. I've already gotten into the groove of the current shop but i am very seriously considering switching over.

Life has been boring ish. I haven't been hanging out with the guys all that much and will be around even less once class begins. It's sad and it all makes me pretty upset but there really isn't all that much I can do. I hope to meet new people once class starts. I hope for a lot of things just that one happens to be the most likely to happen which, unfortunately, isn't all that likely. It's not like I am, even in the best of situations, all that much of an attractive pesonality.

Meh. Mister fert loves me, I don't know how much more than that I really need. He makes me laugh, he is small and cuddly, he won't ever leave me for someone else or tell me I'm not good enough. ALl i have to do is love him back, feed him and keep him clean, much less than most people would ask in return for all of that.

I probably should be cleaning. My room and my roleplaying folder both need it pretty bad. And laundry should be done since i've just been picking out whatever happens to be kinda clean to wear. I forgot i owned some of the clothes in the bottom of my hamper.

I have a huge amount of arizona green tea in my room, a twelve pack of sixteen ounce bottles. Anyone want to watch Battle Royale and drink tea with me? Neh?