I lack the charm and looks.

Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie - Tiny Vessels


If i ever meet a guy i really like, a man who i could imagine being married to, a man of virtue who could love me and my flaws, remind me to not introduce him to Melanie.


Why would anyone want me after meeting her?

She seems to have a will of her own; she's flying in the face of fashion now.

Current Music: World Shut Your Mouth - Death Cab for Cutie

I don't feel like i really know what i'm doing again. I was getting things under control, working towards a semi-decent goal. Recent events have forced me to set my goals a bit higher than "make enough money to live and never see my mother again."

I've got a new plan. One i think is worthy, that he would approve of in the quiet, unassuming way he had. I'm supposed to go hang out right now. I'm sorta procrastinating from that. It's weird. It feels unnatural, like things are still on hold.

<22 hours, 47 minutes later>

got drunk again. Woke up somewhere not home. Again.

I don't know what i'm doing. Other than Avunc, I don't know how comfortable I am around people who know me.