Friday, May 17, 2013

Patience.

I am so fucking done with being sucked dry. I feel so used and shitty and taken advantage of by someone who could have conceivably been a friend. 

I took care of her cats for two months, then, when she comes back to get them she suddenly needs a place to stay herself. I offer her my home for a week, to which she asks what is the longest time she could stay with me. I reply with one month and the very next day she has the audacity to argue that I said six weeks. 

I ask her to be respectful of my space and my landlords and not not leave drug paraphernalia outside in the open. She says that she will clean and organize and that things will be even nicer than they were before she showed up. 

She is not respectful of my space, to the extent that I came home to her clothes drying in front of my bedroom door. Nothing like having to duck through a guests clothes to get to my own room. Then, after I offer her my very favorite candy, a lovely fluer de sel chocolate, she eats all but three pieces of it. Great. 

She took over my computer and complains about her own laptop when I ask, politely, if i can USE MY OWN FUCKING COMPUTER. She doesn't even make up her bed in the morning which would be fine if it wasn't also my goddamned couch that I guess I have to sit on because I can't get to my fucking computer. 

I explained that she has to be quiet in the evenings because my landlords ten year old daughter sleeps in the room closest to my porch and i get an email at 11pm about her having invited more people into my house while i was gone and talking loudly right on the porch where i told her shit has to be quiet. Not to mention the two fucking marijuana pipes she leaves outside as if it's so fucking hard to grab her piece then go outside. Noooo, it has to be outside waiting for her. 

This whole thing with fucking inviting people over to my house like it's hers is really fucking getting to me. She acts entitled but it's my house. 

I am pretty fucking generous I thought. I thought that maybe this extremely generous offer would be enough for her to treat me and mine like people with responsibilities and rights. I was apparently really fucking wrong and I am really close to kicking her the fuck out of my home as soon and I get off this 16 fucking hour shift, during the middle of which is when i found out about her inviting people over while I'm away. 

It has really hit me that I've put myself in this really shitty situation for really stupid reasons. I thought that I would be treated with respect. There is no way I am going to get that respect from this person, to whom it has become basic instinct to lie, cheat and steal from whomever she can. It has become apparent that this person is not my friend.