Current Music: none
I'm enjoying a quiet night. . . in a sense. Dungeons and Dragons make for an easily frustrated state of mind. Perhaps I shouldn't complain; this is my hobby.
I have been finding myself easily angered. I nearly beat the crap out of Aaron a few nights ago and I nearly beat Akim. I would have if I hadn't bruised my hand the evening before on Aaron. I'm bruised and hurt and still ever filled with anger unlike I've ever been suspect to. I know it is a side effect of Beans' death, just as much as I know that it isn't healthy to be so prone to physical violence.
Having been a fairly docile person for the bulk of my life, this sudden shift in temperament has been perplexing me as much as those around me who are left as physically damaged as myself. This is a new kind of depression. I feel as though, in lieu of hurting myself in the typical, emo way, I've decided to hurt myself by fighting with others.
I should be paying attention. I'll be back on this subject someday.
