the light shine from the window

Gnawing pit in my stomach. I don't want to be here at all. Today is one of those horrible awful no good very bad days. I really think i get too many of those, considering how hard i try to be a good happy well adjusted person.

I have trouble concentrating on this newsmeeting. Aman is saying something about how janitors aren't paid much. Well. . . yeah, of course not, they are janitors.

GATTACA was a great movie. I can never talk about jantitors without thinking about that movie.

Mr. Wong was a great teacher. He taught all of us so much.

I sill change my toothbrush every two weeks thanks to him.

my mind is in free association mode right now without much cause for being that way.

I want to go home, curl into a little ball of Krista and pretend the world doesnt exist for a few more days.

i have this twitching muscle in my thigh. It's really weird. and uncomforatable.

I look adorable today. Wearing my socks always raise my mood but with a day like today it really doesn't make much of a difference. I have my green and navy blue socks.

Jerome is talking to Anna. I can't saying anything in this room and get paid attention. Anna says anything and everyone is all ears. If people paid that much attention to me. . . well, i would try to find a way to abuse the power. Heh, of course. I'm Krista.

I feel so fake still. like there is still something about myself i can't be true to. I don't know why i have this mental block around people. As soon as i talk to anyone i have facade after facade after facade covering and changing anything i want to say. I can't think this way. My life is a big joke it feels.

I can't even concentrate on what i'm thinking here. My thoughts are everywhere and i can't even conciously try to grasp at what I'm thinking or it is gone.

Emo emo emo emo, what is wrong with me? I sound like some HIM fan going on and on about how life in an empty abyss of nothing.

KOTOR is awesome. I'm finishing up my evil campaign. Really, character reactions are a lot cooler when one is an evil jedi. Nothing is more badassed than walking down the street with a dual-sided lightsaber.