the day before the day before my birthday.

And yes, that is in fact a valid "special day", as is the whole week of ones birthday.

I'm cleaning my room out in anticipation of new paint on these boring white walls of mine. I'm thinking natural greens, tans and browns. Because, everyone would love to have a forest for a bedroom. I know i would.

San Andreas is super fun. soooo. . . many. . .hookers. GAH! i love.

I'm kinda still in dire need of male companionship. I refuse to call Akim anymore, now that he is gone, it seems pointless. Boyfriend are a huge ego and self-esteem boost. the assurance that you are desirable and there are people who want you. It's nice. and also something i dont get nearly as often as i feel i should. In time, in time. . .

Is it special? When you're lonely? Is everything different? A new perception? One without need or desire for outside influence? Or a lust for acceptance and place in society?

i fancy myself a former.

*hums The Longest Winter from Pedro the Lion*