Making fun of inferior people.

Current Music: Fugazi - Cashout

I feel good. I mean, I don't feel like I'm exactly happy about the whole APF situation. It was far from ideal but damn, I had a great time for the short while it lasted.

Realistically, given the number of people I've honestly had romantic feelings for, I'm lucky enough to have had reciprocated feelings from two. I'm not exactly a desirable woman to most people.

It's getting easier and easier to adjust to being alone. I don't mean in some self-loathing, "everyone leaves" way. I like being alone once I'm there. This move has given me the chance to be more alone than I have ever been and it was worth it to fuck that up to have been with someone who was unique, interesting and kind. Not having that unexpected connection isn't a sacrifice, it's getting back to where I wanted to be, what I came out here to do for myself.

In other words, I'm aware that I am a complete person on my own and I got drunk last night with strangers and had fun being myself.