Don't you feel it now?

Current Music: Fugazi - Life and Limb

I've been feeling pretty good lately. I like feeling. . . well, for lack of better words, liked. Being told I'm beautiful is such an amazing feeling. I've been given cute, hot, adorable, fuckable, nearly everything but just beautiful. This guy is so. . . bashful and cute and awkward and it makes me absolutely adore him. It might get old later but for now it is absolutely amazing. We're going flying and ice skating and all these really ridiculously cute things. i get to see him again tonight and i'm just. . . *le sigh*

I've never felt like the more experienced or self-assured one before. He asks me why i picked him and i can't understand why he doesn't see it. This. . . sense of uniqueness that comes off of him like waves, constant yet waning and inexplicably there. i feel so wanted in his arms. I feel gorgeous.


Not to mention that i look better than i have in ages. I'm losing weight like a fiend and my hair is red again and my chin is all defined and i'm getting these cute little flat abs and i feel so good about myself. It's great. I know i'm looking better and it feels good to have other people looking at me and knowing, for sure, that they aren't thinking "omg, what a fat loser."

i'm super giddy but, that could be the alcohol.