I am coming to the ever so steady realization that there are more than a few people i miss at any given point. Whenever I'm not with her, i miss melanie because i am always thinking about things and i can always tell those things to mel. I love her and i love talking to her or even just sitting with her and being close. She is always there for me and i love the times i'm actually with her. I miss Heather. Damn. Without my fucking phone i can't even call her or txt her. It fucking sucks. She is bubbly and fun and so bloody adorable. We had some fun times. You know, that really is it. She is fun, in a lighthearted, carefree way. I miss her. Quite a bit actually.
I miss the FUCK out of Gabe. I need to see that kid soon. He's like an older brother to me, the fact that, logically, we should not get along at all but we do and it's great and that bastard needs to get his ass back here and hang out. I need to get my geek on.
I'm told I shouldn't, but i miss that rat bastard, Akim. We used to talk an awful lot. Fuck, we used to talk more when he lived hundreds of miles away. I feel like the closer we are physically, the more he separates from me mentally. In all actuality, he has been boring the fuck out of me. He doesn't go out anymore, we don't get tea, he never calls, IMs, visits. It's all on me. I just like having fun and talking and joking and singing and he just wants to sit at home, play WoW, go out with people from work and get high. It's. . . it's sad to me because i liked him for who he was at every point in time but now his big social activity is getting high. *sigh*. I don't know. I adore the kid but I don't want to keep putting my neck out for him. I miss how things used to be.
I miss Rich a little bit. Not as much as i would if either of us had more free time and hung out more but i miss him enough to really look forward to seeing the charming fuck. Okay, not so charming, more awkward and nervous but it is cute. I wonder if he occasionally thinks about me at the most random ass times, like i do. It's hardly a portion of my day but it happens once or twice, something happens and i wonder what he is up to. I'm a terrible girl, especially for the doll but, since he's willing to put up with me, I'm quite smitten with the guy. I kinda get a smile thinking about him. I guess it isn't so much missing him as thinking fondly about the time we do get to spend. Only a little bit of the tell-tale aching for his company.
I miss Jaime all the time because i never get to see her and, in all honesty, i feel as if we share a part of our hearts sometimes. That is all i can say about it, there is more to how i feel about her than words. I miss her all the time and wish i could share so much more of my life with her. I love her, with my heart and soul and mind.
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