*arches back*
I feel amazing. I feel like i could kick the asses of several different things all at once. I can take on everyone and everything without a problem right now because I am awesome.
I kinda want to smack myself upside the head for letting a guy make me feel anything at all, especially about myself but it is hard not to. there is something about the awkward way he acts and the touches and it's just. . . kinda what i wanted with akim. FUCK.
fuck fuck fuckity shit fuck.
I am a horrible, horrible, terrible, disgusting person. Jesus. I can't believe i even thought that. It's not even all that true. It's just something that sprung to mind and i typed it and Jesus tap dancing Christ. . . I'm completely in shock with myself. That isn't how i feel. Yeah, it would have been nice if things had worked out with Akim but he is not Rich and Rich is NOT Akim. Far from. Rich is, for one thing, nice. and sweet. and treats me with this funny thing called respect.
fuck it, i'm getting off that subject because it is making me angry with myself over nothing.
I felt good. He doesn't do all those little, quirky, outdated-yet-endearing etiquette things that i notice but he is simply amazing. That and he is bloody gorgeous. I feel lucky. Very. *sigh* I should sleep. My fucked up sleep schedule is out of whack, even for me.
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