Ah, my computer just twitched out and lost a huge post I did. It is okay, it was mostly a post about nothing. It was huge though, so I will mourn its loss. Schuby.org Is down right now so I cant get my pictures. Damn you schuby. Come back soon. I still love you though. Okay, so how am I? a little down right now. Frankie is being an asshole, no, not pedophile Frankie, Frankie my brother. Oh well, he can be as ignorant as he wants. Fuck him, I don't need it. Though it is odd that he turns into an asshole at the same time as Bryan because they have a lot of similarities. Oh well, my life is fucked over right now. Though I did have fun on Friday, I was too pissed afterwards to write about the good stuff. I went out to party with a few friends after the last final. I did good on all my finals, surprisingly. I did not study for a damn thing. Ha, just goes to show... Something, but I don't really care. I am in one of those moods. I went to church today, I should have been at church again right now but fuck that, I am not going to remind mom to make me go to that shit. There was a few hot guys there but the whole experience was not worth it at all. egh, church sucks, no matter which way you look at it. I am listening to my music really loud right now and wondering if mom is going to come into my room to bitch at me while I pretend I cant hear her. I think she is yelling from the front room right now. Eh, she will go to sleep soon enough. Hell, I think I will go to the freaky thing the new psychologist was talking about just to get away from the family. Think of this new school thing boarding school for freaks like me. Not so much fun but a lot better than my family. That and I will likely pass my classes faster because it is specialized tutoring. I can make up problems for them to fix and stay there as long as I need to pass high school. They like to solve your problems, I find. Too bad no real mistake is as easy to fix as I make it for all those doctors. I think I have to make a private blog soon here. Too many of the wrong people are reading this. And often. And they are telling more wrong people about this. Fuck it. I don't need these people on my case too. I have enough advice, help and therapy, more than I want or will ever need. So back the fuck off of my jock. Bizzatch. This is entertainment. Okay? No need to flap your mouth off to every Tom, Dick and Harry. Unless you don't know me, then blab away. This is for the people who know me, where I live and whom I talk to on a regular basis. Yeah, you. Oh well, not you take this in to mind. Egh, I hate that. Okay, I think I will see if I can use a private blog. That will make this one shit. And it wont be nearly as interesting to write or read, and nor will the other one, if I go through with it. But I must suffer for one. If I can. egh, I hate this. Why is everything so fucking confusing. Oh, on a bright note, DAVID IS GONE! Jesus, he has been rubbing it in my face and being such a bitch to me for so long now. And nobody cares about it because.. I don't know. I guess I don't really matter in that respect. Well, he is leaving for adult ed because he is an idiot. And I know Ashley will miss him and he will always be over at he house and I will always be jealous because he wanted her first (of course) and because she doesn't care how much it hurts me to have him around and how much it hurts to have to keep all those mean things inside because she doesn't want to hear it. She will do anything for me... As long as it isn't too hard for her to do or doesn't inconvenience her. I am in such a bitchy mood. You see? This is why I cant have people I know reading this because they always get hurt and read only what they want to. That and they get mad at me for writing in my fucking blog, diary, journal. Oh well. I don't know what to do. This is what I have. It is here and I don't feel like moving it yet. It may not seem like a big deal but it is hard to move a blog. And to start on a new one. It is harder than most people will give credit. Yeah, well, suck my big imaginary penis. I am going to see what I missed on the net while the Ethernet in my house was down.