goddamnit. nothing works. fucking useless. why bother. give in

fuck. fuck fuck. fucking damnit. shit. i hate my life. dad is fucking semi-abusive, he is too fucking afraid to really hit so he scares and grabs and shakes me. Damn him. fuck annie. fuck mom. fuck them. they love each other, great. why does it always work like this? huh? im so fucking sick of this shit. fucking assholes. why dont they care about me. why is everything i do forgotten. why am i so cast aside? why is it this way. everyone tells me i am better than annie but mom and dad treat her so much better. fuck. fuck. god. im pressing burning paper into my skin until it doesnt hurt. then i light it up again and start over. i can almost feel the pain and anger leave my head when i do this. i dont have my razors anymore. they all dissappeared. godamn them. fuck them. go to hell. fuck off. i hate them so much. i have no fucking place to go and i hate it. so so much. fuck them all. fuck them, fuck it. i guess i am just lazy... FUCK THAT. i do so much here yet annie runs the water and dad starts yelling at me and shaking me for not helping.