Another set of Everlclear lyrics to explain how I feel in a more musical way. These three guys are the makers of the last three sets of lyrics I have posted. Yeah, I stole the picture from a hosted site. I hope they don't mind me slowing their bandwith. Anyway, back to me. I guess that all is okay between me and David now. I am still so confused though. Yeah, I am in over my head. This is not something I have done before and I kinda just plunged into the most confusing, cloudy, murky waters around. Now, we are just friends. I don't know how to feel about that either. I guess I don't like that so much. I like kissing him, I like being close to him, his smell and his hair. I like him. But now I don't have any of those things anymore. Okay... I was just THINKING about kissing him and i got just a little dizzy. Good dizzy, not the scary-I-think-I'm-gunna-puke dizzy. Yeah, he said he still likes me a few times but he also said that it's over. So it's over. Not my choice at all. I would have wanted to fix what was wrong with our situation. Talk more, if that was what he wanted. I just... I hate the thought of losing some of the pluses we had. First of all, we talked a lot more overall. On the phone almost everynight and we talked on AIM so much it was ridiculous. We're talking on AIM right now, in fact. So, it would seem that, all is resolved and done. Why do I still feel weird? Probably because I am in this way too deep and feel so very rejected and confused. I can't think... can't do anything myself. I tripped out at Mother and broke my door almost in half. I didn't even know I could physically do that. Now I can't even close my door. My toe hurts and I hate being so confused and lost. I'm so stupid sometimes. Almost all the time in fact. I could safely say and provide argument that I am stupid. I wish I had never told anyone about my dream and I wish I had never started all of this and I wish I had transferred to another school when I had the chance.

Out Of My Depth
Out of my depth
Lost in the air
Falling faster
Like a broken elevator

Out of my depth
Lost in the dark
Waiting for the other shoe
To come down hard

I cannot communicate
Like I wish I could

I do not deal with my problems
Like I know I should

I am out of my depth
I am out of my league
Watching everything...just
Slip away from me

Something bad is
going to happen
I can feel it deep inside
There are shadows
all around me
Like a bad moon on the rise

I am in over my head

I am in too deep here
over my head

I guess I should keep my
opinions to myself

I guess I am out of my depth

Out of my depth
Right from the start
I feel like I was born
With an invisible heart
Out of my depth
Seems like everyday
I can't find the words
To make the good things
Come my way

I feel like I am faking it
I feel like I am wrong
I feel like I'm a guest
...like I just do not belong

I am out of my depth
Every single day
I just cannot find the words
To make my monsters go away

Something bad is
going to happen
I can feel it deep inside
There are shadows
all around me
Like a bad moon on the rise

I am in too deep here
over my head

I should seek
some professional help

Because I'm out of my depth

Yes, I'm out of my depth

And I am slowly going
out of my mind

Oh, go away
Make them go away
Someday I know
I will make them go away
Make them go away
Make them go away
Someday I know...I will make
my monsters go away

I am in over my head

I should seek
some professional help

I should keep my
opinions to myself

I guess I am out of my depth

I am out of my depth

Yes, I am slowly going
out of my mind