This is me and how I feel somewhat. I posted this once, long long ago. About someone else... Yeah, yeah, I am a normal teenager when it comes to how easily I give my feelings up to a guy that shows, has showed or might be showing any interest in me. I finally figured out how to get this link to open up with you having to go to the site and clicking the link there. This will open up in its own JavaScript window [UPDATE: it doesn't. It will take up the whole screen but believe me, it is worth it]. You love me and you know it. My god this site has so many protections against copyright infringes. I hope they don't mind me making this link. They kinda tried to prevent people doing what I did to get this. Using "Copy shortcut", which is what I tried to do, gave you "JavaScript:;" so I guess I shouldn't have done this. I don't think I did anything wrong. If I did... Contact me. I had a good talk with Ashley at the track about why I may still like David. I don't know if what we said was good or bad but it did help me to think about what I was feeling in an objective manner. He did not treat me very good, why would I want to continue that type of thing? He is not any of the things I look for in a guy except he is a nice guy who is my friend. I should not pursue this at all anymore. I know this now. Thank you Ashley, you have no idea how much I love you. Mind you it will be a little while before I stop moaning and whining about David. I still do like him but I know I need to stop. This one sided thing is not good for me. And I know that now. I know that it is one sided and that it is hurting me. It only took me forever to figure that out. I mean, he doesn't like me and I think that he may still have a thing for Ashley. Doesn't everybody have a thing for Ashley. I don't blame him. How can a guy not be attracted to Ashley. I, as a, for the most part, straight girl, recognize that she is really attractive. Of course David is going to like her more. Probably wishing that I was Ashley while we did anything. Maybe he is really good at pretending.
MY GOD!!! STOP THE SELF PITY! I'm stopping now. It is all pretty much true in my mind but still. I don't have the right to say those things. Sorry. Anyway, I am lonely. So I am lashing out. No, I don't mean lonely as in I am alone. I mean lonely as in I had hormonal flood gates opened. Then all my action was abruptly cut off. I am lonely in that use of the word. Just so you know. If you happen to be a guy I know from my school who happens to want me (yeah right) find me and say so. I need a make-out buddy. David can do whatever the fuck he wants. If he wants to pine after Ashley, great, doesn't every other male on the planet do that anyway? He can go ahead. I am not going to kill myself trying to get his attention. I could never compare to Ashley, I am not going to try.
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